WINDOW REFLECTIONS

(Post by: Lilly Hobbs)

I woke up this morning remembering the absolute fear that I felt last year on this day when I woke up. It’s been an entire year since we were in downtown Fort Worth looking up at a huge jail, knowing that a guy named Rocky, who was genuinely family to us, was in there.

How? Why? What’s the purpose? Those are all questions that I still have and can’t answer entirely.

Late last night I was texting with a friend that has spent hours on her knees, alongside me and some other girls, praying for Rocky. Not only has she done that, but she’s stuck by me and supported me through this whole process. As we were texting about how crazy it is that a year has gone by, she said, “You know, honestly, I would have never been able to do what you did.”

This hit me. Some people may have read that text and patted themselves on the back. But I know that when I went in to the jail to visit Rocky, it wasn’t just me.

Truth is, I was hurt that Rocky had broken the trust that I had in him. I thought that he was a “good guy” and that he was different. That’s why I didn’t go in to visit until the third day we were there.

There’s only one way I know how to explain what made my mindset change, and that’s with some song lyrics. I recently heard a song called “Who Am I” by NEEDTOBREATHE, and man does this song tear me up every time I listen to it. Here are some of the lyrics…

White lights and desperation
Hard times and conversation
No one should ever love me like you do
Sometimes my bad decisions
Define my false suspicions
No one should ever love me like you do

While I’m on this road you take my hand
Somehow you really love who I really am
I push you away, still you won’t let go
You grow your roses on my barren soul

Who am I, who am I, who am I
To be loved by you

At first, I didn’t want to go visit because I was hurt. But secondly, I didn’t want jail to change my mindset about who Rocky really was. I wanted my memory of him to be when we all said goodbye for the 400th  time outside of his favorite pizza place.

I thought that loving who Rocky really was, was loving who he was when I hugged him outside the pizza shoppe. As I look back, I see that I was wrong. I found out as soon as I saw him through that rusty window, wearing a jumpsuit, that really loving who people are, is when you love them in the middle of their sin.

In the middle of the mess, and through the reflection in the glass.

You know, it’s really easy to love who you think somebody really is when there’s no hurt or sin mixed in. It’s easy to love when things are all good, and you know you can trust them.

Anyone who has decided to follow Jesus could have done what I did by going in to visit Rocky. When you experience Jesus loving you the way you really are, you can’t help but do anything else than love others the way they really are too.

And to love who they really are, is to love them in their sin. Just like Jesus did when He proved He was willing to die for us, while we were yet sinners, not knowing if we would ever love Him back.

I had to learn that what people do does not determine their worth. I had to stop my mind from tricking me into thinking that he was a “bad guy” just because I was talking to him through glass.

1 Peter 4:8 says, “Above all, keep loving one another earnestly, since love covers a multitude of sins.”

My goal in life is to love who people really are, simply because that’s what Christ has done for me. What we have to remember is that not everyone will accept that love from us right away. It might take some time, and that’s ok. How long did Jesus wait for you? 

There will be people who decide to close the window when you’ve come back to help them a thousand times over. But what they need to know is that we will be there when they decide to open the window again; simply because we love them.

We just have to be willing to wait and see their reflection in the glass when they come in desperation.

“I am not a theologian or a scholar, but I am very aware of the fact that pain is necessary to all of us. In my own life, I think I can honestly say that out of the deepest pain has come the strongest conviction of the presence of God and the love of God.”    (Elisabeth Elliot)

SO WHAT IS YOUR RESPONSE?

= Do you personally believe that Jesus loves who you really are?

= Is it hard for you to love people in the middle of their mess and sin?

= What are you going to do differently?

3 thoughts on “WINDOW REFLECTIONS

  1. Sky says:

    WOW this is such a good post! This really hit home. When loving someone it is important to not love how the world loves, but to view everyone in the eyes of Jesus. Often times I think we read the Word, and we are passionate about what it says in the moment. We agree whole heartedly with what God has to say, and then later on in the day we allow our emotions to take over our vision. You explained beautifully exactly what people need to know. In response to your reflection questions: It can be really hard to see at times, but I do believe that Jesus loves who we really are. I have asked myself the same questions, “Why me?”, “What is there to love?”, “I keep messing up, so why do you take me back?”. I think it is important to really dive into the Love of God. Truly seek Him out on this and see His love for you. He will reveal to you what you need to know. It can be extremely hard at times to love people in their mess, yet Ephesians 5:8 is a great reminder that we once were in their place. Not exactly the same way, no, every story is unique. Thus this is why it is so important to realize as well how unique God’s love is for each and every one of us. Some times it is hard. Some times it is frustrating not being able to fully grasp to see through His lenses, BUT He is God and we are not. So we need to allow Him to be who He is and learn from that. In terms of what am I going to do differently? I feel before reading this post I had already started, yet this post really cleared the way for me even further (TBH). Putting God’s way of love into practice will not be 100% perfect the first few times around, but continuing to pursue the path of righteousness bit by bit is better than giving it up fully along the way. How we respond in moments is important. We should play in our minds what to do before we react, and have God’s Word on our hearts as a guide. God bless you The Few!

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    • Lilly says:

      Love your sweet heart, friend! I wholeheartedly agree that we’re going to fail and mess up, but that the most important thing we can do is make sure that we keep running back to Jesus every chance we get! Amen & amen! ♥️😁

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  2. Lemoncake11 says:

    I can’t believe that it has been 1 year! As for the post, it was wonderful! I really like the title “Window Reflections”. When others, or ourselves, mess up, it makes us reflect. We reflect on why we cared for that person in the first place, and I pray, that we reflect on what God would do, and how we could best portray him through our actions. 1st Corinthians 13 says that love never fails. Loving someone “A Thousand Times Over” isn’t easy, (Lilly can testify to this.) I will say that when Lilly and Madie tell all of their crazy ministry stories on Bible Study nights, it sends me spinning. All of the nights that us girls prayed for Rocky were heartfelt and real. Through it all, I’ve seen hope. Lilly and Madie always had hope that the Lord was working, and that inspired me. People may fail you in life, big and small, but Jesus’ love NEVER fails! Keep believing in him! 🙌🏻❤️

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